Long time no blog post! Happy to have you all still here.
This blog post is a personal story of sorts, so if you’re not interested in my crafty issues, please excuse this blog post and wait for the next one.
If you wish to see/read more about any of the crafts in the photos I posted below, leave a comment requesting a more detailed blog post/tutorial. Thanks!
In this post, I’ll be focusing on three points:
- A short review of my crafty year 2017.
- Hopes and dreams for 2018.
- An explanation to my somewhat silent blog.
So let’s get straight to it!
1. A short review of my crafty year 2017.
I haven’t made many huge crafty projects this year, apart from posting two video tutorials on YouTube (about how to make my crochet rose). (In case you still haven’t seen the videos, go on over to my channel HERE.) And let me tell you, editing a video with a thousand mistakes in it is a huge project indeed!
Other than a few videos and some cards, I’ve not made many crafty things, which is rather upsetting and unfortunate for me. I tried making bead bracelets, which I’ll hope to make more of, and I (maybe) invented a pencil case that wraps around a planner/notebook. I also tried making another crochet doll (which I made in late 2016).
So here is a very tiny photo collage of my crafts from this year:
To see more of what I’m currently crafting or more detailed images of the photos above, go to my Instagram accounts:
2. Hopes and dreams for 2018.
Because I didn’t accomplish many craft projects this year, I’m hoping that I’ll find some crafty inspiration for the new year, 2018. My dream is to develop my sewing skills, as well as learn how to do lettering or modern calligraphy in a way that makes me happy. I know I won’t become a master in either art/craft form, but I’m learning to accept 80% of what I consider to be ‘perfect’. Other projects I’ll hope to make include: jewelry, more greeting cards, a bullet journal (of sorts and for a good use), crochet dolls, crochet and knit baby booties, and useful pouches and make-up bags.
My hope is to craft one thing per week during 2018. It can be something small, or a part of a bigger project, but I just reaaaally want to make something, anything.
Also, I really wish I could make more YouTube videos, but I don’t exactly know which crafty item people would want a tutorial on. I don’t claim to be an expert, so I feel unable to truly instruct anyone on any craft project.
In 2018, I hope to make things for myself, rather than focusing on producing products and thinking about what other people will think about my crafts. I do like making crafts to give as gifts, but I hate the idea of having to perform and becoming a craft-making factory that spews out ready-made products for people to consume. (I feel a rant coming, so here’s the next topic…)
3. An explanation to my somewhat silent blog.
The following story is a long rant, and most of it is just “thoughts from inside Kati’s head“. Read at your own peril (and boredom). You have been warned! 🙂
A few years ago, when I was still making a lot of crafts and posting them online, people started asking me to make things for them. I would constantly hear: “Oh that crafty thing you posted online looks so cool, can you make me one?”
To which I always replied: “Yes, of course!” (Because I’m too nice and can’t say ‘no’.)
As I said above, I don’t want to become a craft-making factory. And that’s exactly what I became a few years ago, and what I still am sometimes.
So after I exhausted myself with taking requests and making crafts for others, and getting absolutely nothing in return, I felt empty, sad, and rather fed up with crafting. I even started hating the idea of making crafts, even for myself. And thus I closed up shop, stopped posting on my blog, packed up all of my craft supplies, and basically gave up on the one thing I’ve always loved – making crafts.
I still feel anxious sometimes when I think about making crafts, and even though I love giving gifts to people, the time and energy it takes for me to start crafting again is just too much for me. And the thought of having to share what I’ve made online, typing up a detailed blog post, taking photos of the project, or making a video, feels like a mountain. A very high one at that.
I also have this dumb idea in my head that everything I make has to be 100% perfect, and when a project turns out to be less than perfect, I don’t want to share it with anyone. I’ll also feel like I’ve wasted my time trying to make something that turned out to be a dud. And because so many people follow my blog these days, I think I must perform perfectly, I must make great things, I must come up with new and exciting tutorials, I must make people like my blog and not quit following it, etc.
But this isn’t a commercial craft blog. I don’t get paid to do any of this. The only benefit I get from this blog is the joy of making crafts and sharing them with people who might like to see my crafts. And if there is no joy in it for me, the blog stays silent.
And so in conclusion, the reason I haven’t posted many blog posts is because I’ve been avoiding crafting, because it hasn’t made me happy.
In the new year 2018, I will post more blog posts. The posts probably won’t be tutorials, they won’t include lots of detailed instructions, and they won’t be perfect. But they will make me happy, and they will include whatever I wish to share on my hobby crafty blog.
And in case all of that sounds too selfish, then not to worry – if someone wants my help with some craft project, I’ll help. In the background, I’ve helped people print out my crochet rose pattern, I’ve helped them look for crochet patterns, I’ve replied to comments and given feedback on crochet roses people have made and showed me, and I’ve explained my tutorials in more detail. I’m still here, trying to make this a blog that everyone will enjoy, but everyone will have to include me too in the future. And that’s the aspect I’ll be focusing on in the new year.
Thank you for reading this rant!
Thank you for subscribing to my blog. Thank you for taking an interest in what I do and create. And please feel free to leave a comment, anytime, anywhere on my blog. I love getting comments and replying to them, I really do!
And in case you find yourself in a similar situation with your crafting and creativity, here are two videos that have helped me get over my crafty anxiety in the past:
- Hank Green / Vlogbrothers: “The Secret to my Productivity”
- Ze Frank: “An Invocation for Beginnings“ (WARNING: This video includes some swear words.)
Happy new year 2018, everyone!
I hope it’ll be a good one filled with joy, crafts, and happiness!